Prompt: Is My Life Today How I pictured It A Year Ago?

 Is my life today how I pictured it a year ago? 

Oddly enough, my life today is exactly what I had pictured a year ago. I knew then that I was struggling, and I knew the following year would be no different. Yes, it is negative thinking and foreshadowing, but I’m more of a realist than I thought I was. The awareness of my struggles last year was profound, as it forced me to confront the reality I was living in.

I was in such a low point this time last year, that it was difficult to picture anything ever getting any better. I had zero motivation, zero interest in doing things that usually made me happy, and zero reactions of wanting to improve the situation. It felt like I was trapped in a cycle of despair, where every day blurred into the next without a hint of change. I essentially felt as though this was my life, and I’m always going to think and act like this forever. The sense of stagnation was overwhelming, making any glimpse of hope seem out of reach.

I knew that without trying to change things, I would be left in the same predicament. This realization was both frightening and liberating; it turned into a catalyst for action. So here I am now, reflecting on the year’s journey. No real career, no new friends, no love life, and no real direction as to where I want to go and how I want to end up. My therapist had asked me, “What is Happiness?” I most certainly can’t define that, for I’ve gone many years without that feeling. In that moment of reflection, I simply said contentment. And, of course, that’s most everyone’s answer. But what does it mean to be content? Is it financial stability? A loving family? Meaningful relationships? There are so many different aspects to what one could consider happiness, making the answer as complex as it is simple.

I will tell you though, that I have found happiness in unexpected ways. This year, I got to know myself on a deeper level. I embarked on an introspective journey, learning to understand the little child inside me, the one who once believed in endless possibilities and dreams. I made it a point to tell her that things will be okay, that life is a series of ups and downs, and it’s all part of the journey. I have a better understanding of who I am, what I want, and what brings me joy. This newfound awareness has been pivotal to my growth. I couldn’t be happier with this progress, as it has opened doors to self-compassion and acceptance.

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