Envisioning My Life in Three Years
Sometimes it’s hard to think ahead. For me, it’s overwhelming and scary to think about. I usually try to numb out anything other than the present because I tend to get incredibly anxious reflecting on past events and future possibilities. But I think that focusing more on where I want to be in life is more important than my small fears.
Ideally in three years, I’d like to see myself living on my own and being fully independent. I’m finally ready to lead a life that is my own. I want the experience of being on my own two feet and know what it feels like to handle life’s ups and downs independently. I’ve honestly always liked being alone. I find peace in solitude. However, I want to take that comfort to the next level by creating a home that mirrors who I am.
I’ve been thinking a lot about moving to Portland. I’ve been tossing that idea around for years, but I feel like I’m finally ready to take that leap. Oregon is absolutely beautiful. The lush greenery, the misty mornings, the frequent rain, are all things I love. So, it feels like a great place to start fresh. Besides, I have a few friends who live there, so I’ll never truly be alone.
But, if I’m honest, it’s also a scary thought. I’ve lived in California my whole life. My roots, my memories, my family, are all here. I’ve always been highly attached to “home,” and the idea of leaving it behind feels like stepping into the unknown. But I want to prove to myself that I can build a life I love. I want to make decisions without fear, explore new places, and find the confidence that I know I have somewhere buried inside of me.
Three years from now, I don’t want to just dream about change, I want to live it. I imagine a woman living on her own in a cozy Portland apartment and sipping a cup of chamomile tea by the windowsill watching the rain gently fall to the ground. She’s content, not because life is perfect, but because she finally feels at home within herself.
“And suddenly you just know… it’s time to start something new and trust the magic of beginnings.”
Meister Eckhart
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One Comment
MyGenXerLife
I visited Portland about a year ago. It definitely is a cool place. I totally understand the attraction to move up there. But I’m from California, too. Do I also understand the difficult of leaving this place.